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Victimhood

Victimhood

For many years I played the role of a victim. For a decade I coped by hiding in the closet. Then I tentatively started to come out to a few people, but I still was afraid and lacked self-confidence. I avoided any risk so I compromised my career and avoided any situation that might be a threat. I lived life on the fringes - not really engaged.

Slowly I realized that my WASP privilege shielded me from many of the problems that people of color face in this country every day. I came to understand that I was only one of many who are marginalized by society by racism, homophobia, greed, and class distinction. We may not be able to control our circumstances, but we can choose our responses.

I even found a partner, but again the pressures of society made it difficult to maintain that relationship. I could not even imagine the opportunity of getting married and living a normal life.

I found a steady job and settled down in a small community and got by - getting along and keeping a low profile. I wasn’t living up to my potential, but again I was afraid of taking the risk of stepping outside my comfort zone.

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A Christmas Story

Yehova Alimlinda Yesu

The train was crowded, and every seat was filled. The young woman politely asked if the seat next to me was available. It took some time for the train to get underway. In the meantime, she turned on the overhead light and started reading. After the train started moving, she got up and went to the club car where the lighting was brighter. She stayed there for a long time before returning to her seat.

After she sat down again, we struck up a conversation. I learned that her family originally was from Ethiopia. They had emigrated first to Mississippi and then to New Jersey, where she earned her college degree. She had heard about the job opportunities in the Triangle and applied for a job in Raleigh. She liked the lively downtown atmosphere and the loads of activities for young professionals. She was happy in North Carolina and not particularly interested in its politics.

We chatted for some time before lapsing into silence as the hours got later. I last saw her leaving Raleigh Union Station. I wondered how a beautiful young African-American felt about the Deep South, and she admitted that it was a challenge at times. Raleigh was much more progressive, and she felt that her race was not an issue.

With all the current hysteria about immigrants of color, I guessed that the transition of her family might be more difficult today. I also thought of another immigrant family who fled to Egypt to escape persecution. Although they later returned to Palestine, Egypt and Ethiopia became early adopters of Christianity and fostered the developed the Coptic branch of the religion. Although Christians are now a threatened minority in these Muslim nations, many ancient churches still survive. According to tradition, one even holds the sacred chalice of Christ.

People have searched the scriptures in the Old Testament of the Jewish tradition of hospitality that was prevalent in the first century. Then we had the Crusades and now the civil wars in the Middle East. The refugee crisis in Syria has overrun European countries that struggle to cope with the influx of millions of people. America seem to be threatened by a few thousand refugees on our southern border. Let’s face it, the real issue is racism and not security.

We are a nation of immigrants. During the 18th Century, they came exclusively from Europe. For most of the 19th Century, the people came from Europe or China. In the 20th Century, we attracted people from all over the world, primarily because of better economic and educational opportunities than in the less developed nations. We put up lots of barriers to protect ourselves, but people still come in spite of our overt hostility at times. Why?

Because for generations we were the beacon of hope in a world filled with wars and lack of economic opportunity. Poverty exists in this country but not in the same extent as in many other countries, such as India.

Jesus was a Jew and a Palestinian. Would we welcome him today?

Can We Find Peace at Thanksgiving?

Gather and Give Thanks

My church continues to struggle and is engaged in a battle of who will control the denomination. I went back and read my commentary a year ago on “The Way Forward” in the current controversy of the United Methodist Church over homosexuality. We now have the report of the commission, the three optional plans they presented, and the recommendations of the Council of Bishops. Here in North Carolina we’ve had a series of “discernment” meetings to discuss the options and to consider the positions of the local churches. Everyone is gearing up to lobby the delegates of the Special Called Session of the General Conference in February 2019. The conference will consider the options and presumably reach a decision on the issues. It’s not just a question of the wording of the Book of Discipline; it’s also about what happens with the potential reorganization of the church, especially if the Wesleyan Covenant Association decides to leave the denomination.

Other than religion writers, I don’t think anyone other than Methodists are concerned about these issues. We’ve been debating dogma for almost 50 years without any resolution, and I’m not confident that we will come up with a practical solution this time.

My fears and concerns are not only for the future of the United Methodist Church but also about the future of the LGBT Civil Rights Movement. It is under attack by the federal government on many levels, including a potential reversal of Supreme Court decisions. My pastor’s Thanksgiving sermon was about relying on faith to soothe our worries and ease our souls. That’s a hard road for me right now. I am concerned not only with LGBT rights but also the explosion of gun violence in this country, the lack of social justice not only in our economy, but also in our judicial system. We are a divided nation that seems incapable of breaking out of gridlock to reach solutions. Love is the answer, but how do we express unconditional love in such a fractious society?

I’m reviving an old tradition and going to DC on the train for Thanksgiving this year to visit friends. Hopefully there will be a break in the demonstrations, and I will avoid the traffic by leaving my car at the station. We tend to blame all of our problems on Congress and sometimes see it as the center of everything. In fact, because of the gridlock we’ve been pretty much able to get along without it. I’m going to an inter-faith supper preceding Thanksgiving, which is pretty unusual. We tend to think of the holiday as a Christian celebration, but in fact it never was. It is about family, community, friends, and at least one day a year in which we express our gratitude for being Americans. It is also the occasion when many Americans choose to be very generous with their time and money.

God Bless America.

Matthew Shepard

twenty years later the life and legacy of matthew wayne shepard

Considering all of the anti-LGBT rhetoric that has come out of Washington the past 18 months, it was inspiring to watch the memorial service at the National Cathedral today. Most of the music was surprisingly old-fashioned and simple until the end when the extended mournful melodies carried on too long. Bishop Gene Robinson gave a short, informal homily that was moving but not maudlin. I was surprised that he got a standing ovation in the middle of a worship service.

The service was a preamble to his internment in the Cathedral crypt. He is one of only 300 persons to be so honored. It also recognized the pain of his cruel death 20 years ago, and how with the efforts of his family he has become the symbol of the gay rights movement in the US. Whatever one might think of the political aspect of the call to get out and vote, it brought into focus the division in this country of how LGBT people are viewed. Unfortunately, that has taken on a popular view of liberal versus conservative stances. In many situations the positions of evangelical Christians have been at the forefront of resistance to LGBT people, not only in the church but in civil society. The Episcopal Church split over this issue, and the Methodist Church has been struggling with it for almost 50 years and also is facing a possible split. Denominational in-fighting over the issue is a waste of time and energy. We already have hundreds of Protestant denominations that have fractured over much more minor issues. Whatever the evils of the Roman Catholic Church over 1,500 years, it did maintain a certain unity that has dissolved in the last 500 years into endless quarrels and debates.

The rationale of this discrimination is the interpretation of a few passages of scripture in the Bible that is used to justify discrimination of the LGBT community. Haggling over interpretations of the Bible is a no-win situation that only leaves everyone frustrated. Taking Jesus’ mandate to love everyone as ourselves is the basis for a solution to the conflict.

Some politicians in the current election cycle are once again using the LGBT community as a bogeyman to imply that we are a threat to Christian moral values. In fact, Christianity was formed by challenging the traditional 613 Jewish laws of the First Century. It established that the true moral values existed in a person’s heart and mind rather than a self-righteous pursuit of strict legalism. Surely, we have come beyond that debate in the intervening centuries.

Our Dysfunctional Congress

congress capitol building darkI usually try to steer clear of politics and focus on the civil and religious rights of the LGBT community in this blog. But the cultural divide in this nation was dramatically displayed in public in the recent Senate hearings. The appointment of a controversial nominee for the Supreme Court dominated the news cycle for weeks. A proposed appointment two years ago was blocked from even having a hearing because “it was an election year.”

The partisan divide in the Senate merely demonstrated the chasm in the dysfunctional Congress that can’t agree on anything. Essential legislation on the basic functions of government is frequently delayed or weakened. Our infrastructure, economy, and social fabric have suffered. Sure, the stock market is booming, but that represents only a portion of the economy. Many other areas are suffering.

The LGBT community is concerned that this new partisanship on the Supreme Court may reverse prior decisions that struck down laws regarding sodomy and same-sex marriage. The media seems to focus on the abortion issue, but many other issues such as judicial reform and privatization of prisons and public schools also may be up for review.

The Senate hearings were dramatic and riveting to watch, but they showed the petty personalities of some of the Senators who revealed their primary concerns were seeking re-election rather than seeking justice. The result was a draw of “he said she said,” with the aborted FBI investigation revealing nothing. We can only assume that because it was never made public and many of the corroborating witnesses were not heard.

November may bring about a shift in which political party controls the Congress next year, but it will not heal the divide. The Congress may not reflect the will of the people, but it reflects the cultural chaos of our times. I cannot recall a more explosive period in our history since the 1960’s. Then we were convulsed in a debate over the Vietnam War and the civil rights of African-Americans. Unfortunately, racism is still a major issue in this nation. Even though we are a nation of immigrants, immigration has boiled over into policies and practices that have horrified the entire world.

We may not yet be in a literal shooting war, such as what occurred in the 19th Century over the issue of slavery, but we are reaching the boiling point that may yet explode. We already have huge public demonstrations across the country, and local outburst of violence. The hope for calm and cooperation seem far off. We look into the future with trepidation. Both sides claim that God is on their side, and we saw that also in the two World Wars. Let’s hope that our failing foreign policies may not again result in another war.

So get out and vote!